Dear Free Period,
Lunch has just ended and even though i was in a lunchroom full of people, i still felt completely and totally
alone.
I felt utterly empty inside;
except for the anxiety attacks that kept rolling through me,
except for the feeling of the blade slicing through my skin,
flesh,
muscle,
and yes, even my
veins.
Except for the feeling of wanting to die.
Except for the feeling of the darkness crawling up my neck.
Except for the feeling of wanting, no
PRAYING
i could find someway,
some will
inside of me
to let it take me
under.
All of lunch and even still,
now
as you are about to end,
all i could think about was cutting.
All
I am trying to cover my sadness with words.
Tape them against my scars
& wear them like worthy paper cuts.
My tears are alcohol swabs, burning & cleansing
wounds of my own making. Sometimes,
I wish I could hide behind them forever.
But not even this journeyed flesh can stand
castle strong against speechless ink stains.
I know the code. This body does not deserve
a warriors death. & poetry, you're a monster
a creative monster, but evil nonetheless.
I wish to string you into knots, force feed you
down the throats of others. De-format you
& leave you empty; freeversed-
to hang loosely along the heartstrings
of strangers
Hey Dad:
What use is there in the words you say
I'm just the one that you hate today.
Your job is bad and you're utterly blue
But did you know that I used to love you too?
Everytime we're home it's all the same
It's like you don't even know my name.
Who am I to you; daughter or son?
Or do you just treat me like everyone.
I used to think that we had a life
But now your words are just like a knife.
Since when did praise and pride turn bad
Why can't we have what we once had?
I'm tired of silence and living this way
I'd like to wake up happy someday...
I dream at night of those better times
When your eyes for me, they used to to s
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